Life gettin harder..........??!
These days life seems to be goin garder by the day.....
A feeling that has been usual off late...
Seeing success all around me but eluding me is strange.
I kept on (.........n still keep) thinking tht i am one of the best around...
But life seems to be proving me wrong time and again.
They say either one of these personal or professional life must be rocking to lead a balanced life...
These days i think both r on the rocks...
Not able to change job. (cant clear interviews or not getting an interview chance itself)
Not able to give time or the heart to my friends ( not in a mood to go out n mingle)
Have not filed Tax returns,n which i wont be able to, as i havent saved anything in the past year and dont have any money now to save....( am close to being called broke/bankrupt)
Not able to motivate myself..( Motivation is goin down south)
Not able to attend classes.(studying c , c++)
Mom staying at my cousins place.( since my aunt died)
I loved my aunt(valliamma)....
I dont think anybody could make ghee rice as good as she used to.
I used to love the very idea of goin to their house during my childhood.(GHEE RICE..)
Can life be more pathetic...
Though i know n proudly say tht "I am the luckiest person alive".
These days the midas touch is vanished....
Friends dont want my company anymore.
Ppl who r in a position to help r thinking twice,while i was counting too much on them..
May be i was/am expecting a lot from them.
Still friends r everything in life....
At times i tend to forget tht they too have a life other than enjoying life with me.
Its gonna be a hrad transition for me to go to work without my colleagues who grew so close that
work seemed fun.
Now with all my friends except one readying to leave,got to find solace thinking that atleast one is left n lot of new ppl have come in.
May be i can get freinds better than the correct ones,
But they can never replace wht these guys mean to me.
At times u dont get back the same importance tht u give to a friend,
But u carry on knowing tht u gotto do ur duty irrespective of situations.
It becomes more difficult when they start making fun of not finding a new job...
There are guys who can do something about it.....
But when ever asked u get a reply saying tht they r waiting for the right time, or they have told
about it.
I know they are in their own tensions,
But cant control my emotions at times.....
Its a hard thing for a guy like me to see his confidence rock bottom.....
But i still believe "I was born to WIN".
At times i myself have thought how prude i am ....
Cant help this feeling just sticks to me.
May be tomorrow is gonna be a better day having loads of surprises instore for me.
May be something big is coming my way......
Dont know wht is gonna happen.....
All tht is known now is gotto rise about it,which i believe i have done in the past.
When ppl have left me in the lurke when their presence was reqd to a great extent...
When life to be crashing down in front of my eyes..
Something inside me says
tht something big is near,tht help is on the way.
umh.............
Such a shit thing to write but cant help.....
Feeling damn low, n couldnt think of anything else other than pouring down my feelings onto my own blog........
This is not me.....
I am know my liveliness,for the josh,for the passion......
Anyways all the best to me & to my friends.......
May we all go on to fulfill and realize the dreams tht we share or have successfully..................
"Kyunki FIGHTER hamesha jeet tha hai".........................................................
A feeling that has been usual off late...
Seeing success all around me but eluding me is strange.
I kept on (.........n still keep) thinking tht i am one of the best around...
But life seems to be proving me wrong time and again.
They say either one of these personal or professional life must be rocking to lead a balanced life...
These days i think both r on the rocks...
Not able to change job. (cant clear interviews or not getting an interview chance itself)
Not able to give time or the heart to my friends ( not in a mood to go out n mingle)
Have not filed Tax returns,n which i wont be able to, as i havent saved anything in the past year and dont have any money now to save....( am close to being called broke/bankrupt)
Not able to motivate myself..( Motivation is goin down south)
Not able to attend classes.(studying c , c++)
Mom staying at my cousins place.( since my aunt died)
I loved my aunt(valliamma)....
I dont think anybody could make ghee rice as good as she used to.
I used to love the very idea of goin to their house during my childhood.(GHEE RICE..)
Can life be more pathetic...
Though i know n proudly say tht "I am the luckiest person alive".
These days the midas touch is vanished....
Friends dont want my company anymore.
Ppl who r in a position to help r thinking twice,while i was counting too much on them..
May be i was/am expecting a lot from them.
Still friends r everything in life....
At times i tend to forget tht they too have a life other than enjoying life with me.
Its gonna be a hrad transition for me to go to work without my colleagues who grew so close that
work seemed fun.
Now with all my friends except one readying to leave,got to find solace thinking that atleast one is left n lot of new ppl have come in.
May be i can get freinds better than the correct ones,
But they can never replace wht these guys mean to me.
At times u dont get back the same importance tht u give to a friend,
But u carry on knowing tht u gotto do ur duty irrespective of situations.
It becomes more difficult when they start making fun of not finding a new job...
There are guys who can do something about it.....
But when ever asked u get a reply saying tht they r waiting for the right time, or they have told
about it.
I know they are in their own tensions,
But cant control my emotions at times.....
Its a hard thing for a guy like me to see his confidence rock bottom.....
But i still believe "I was born to WIN".
At times i myself have thought how prude i am ....
Cant help this feeling just sticks to me.
May be tomorrow is gonna be a better day having loads of surprises instore for me.
May be something big is coming my way......
Dont know wht is gonna happen.....
All tht is known now is gotto rise about it,which i believe i have done in the past.
When ppl have left me in the lurke when their presence was reqd to a great extent...
When life to be crashing down in front of my eyes..
Something inside me says
tht something big is near,tht help is on the way.
umh.............
Such a shit thing to write but cant help.....
Feeling damn low, n couldnt think of anything else other than pouring down my feelings onto my own blog........
This is not me.....
I am know my liveliness,for the josh,for the passion......
Anyways all the best to me & to my friends.......
May we all go on to fulfill and realize the dreams tht we share or have successfully..................
"Kyunki FIGHTER hamesha jeet tha hai".........................................................
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